Am finally out. However, booking out was rather a sad story. It's hard to explain to you but all of us weren't really happy booking out tho we were confined for a period of two weeks.

Many were disunited becos of guard duty n immediately, we knew who were e selfish ones n how cruel the world could be. We pride ourselves in Ninja coy, but when it calls for self integrity, many failed. How sad...

It's been two weeks of torturous training. Many would haf commented that bmt should be easy cos it's not even a command school yet. Then again, in Ninja, many things are different. Not all will see, but to those who suffered, my hearts are with you...

Few of my section mates were ill n e morale of everyone were weak. As much as i've tried to keep my spirits high, its disappointing to see them not becos they could still push themselves. Our commanders were worse, not even a word of encouragement...instead, all e 'tekaning' was wad we got...We dun mind doing it for our mistakes, but to unreasonable circumstances, my PC was saying stuff tt he lost his trust in us...Rubbish!...it made me boiled so hard i wanted so much to throw words in his face tt our platoon were also not trusting him n disappointed in e managment.

Wadever. E vicious series of sad story will just rotate round n round cos he is just so inexperienced n slightly younger than us. Achieving Gold for my IPPT is my personal goal, tho im just so close to getting it, wad he said totally brought me down. I din't ask for any best in anything, all im asking for are e simple stuff just like anyone...We wanna be happy in our training, taking joy in our discipline, not just naggings n repeats when we already got e point! It's e lil things tt keeps me pleased...i dun need to be an IPPT Gold to please my commanders. Afterall, i dun even feel that u are fighting for me, cos its only to your attainment, not to my personal well-being. i dare not speak against him, all becos im bound to learning how to trust my authorities as God has placed them unto me.

All i can sae is, its another week to POP n we only haf one another to support thru another 7 days of hardship.

In God we trust.