Friday, October 27, 2006

There are so many things i wish to explode out in words,

n e task would be so much easier to carry out,

but y is the Holy Spirit pulling me back again n again to stop?

To act and speak up can be so much easier,

God, y do You want me to control?

Lord, help and direct me accordingly.

Anything on my own will never make up Yours.

For things that are not of me, take it away.

be it wad was said, i must not trip.

your exams, e chr camp, e ministry must go on.

can't join in e viscious cycle.

cannot snap.

Lord, Your ministry must carry on. help me get along.

it is not in anyone's word i live in.

Only You can define me.

No other else.
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

manz, i should change.

not the font tho', but my genre of songs.

its just being rebellious for a moment. knowing the truth n acting on it is so different. right kenny?=)

Gospel music is reflective and helps your soul to keep and restore the necessary peace with God. It gives you hope, and the strength to emerge. Songs that are good are those that musicians and singers prayed over. they seek to serve you with the good Lord's spirit.

Secular music placed too much emphasis on feelings, love and hate. It plays over n over in your head, but it stills goes round n never to an ending. Luring and confusing. quite pointless to just satisfy your flesh...

e next qns is, then?

and then?

So Lord, help me come back to you with what is good that u've provided. even e whole world wld laugh at some guy who ain't upbeat with wads with the world, i sae, whatever. cos wads good is going ard well.

Listen well-be professional. Work is work. Personal life is personal. draw the line.

even when e world wanna label you, despise you, shame you, give you names, cut the line, think ur some hypocrite, whatever not, shut these away. you know wad you're doing. dun wavier. You've got better stuff to do then to 'indulge' by e overwhelming nonsence.

e good Lord have plans for everything. dun you bother. do your work.

yes God.
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in the time when staying up late in office to complete a pile of work was such a desperation, God was so merciful. Food came unexpectedly, warm n full of surprise. Thank you soooooo much. really owe you one...that alone showed so much...

Sitting at the break-waters today then i realized more bout' myself. there r times i cannot control how i feel n i cannot feel how to control myself. furthermore, i can never control wad others choose to say.

lao hu bu fa hui, dang wo shi bing mao...

n tt blew my mind away. couldn't find the peace i needed inside.

n you showed me how to release my grip.

Thank you...
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

If we don't firm our believes, then i suppose we can never exploit our potentials.

used to haf this notice board with Reuben. I'd remember you buddy...all e best in your officership days...

Did announcements today. Manz, it feels great to complete another challenge. I thot i'd just freak out on stage, bt im gladly encouraged by prayers n frens/lders who believed in me. Was i glad to hear e congregation having the commotion n all..i loved their initial energy..

i believed i cld do more. i can, n i probably will..

God, use me then 
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

I must have done something rite somewhere in life...
reflect n search deep w/n...ul find some, somehow...

kids totally amazed by the Camera Flying Object...

i play, u listen first

you ask, i listen too

how could i forget you guys, ever?

Lord, u gave me memories i cannot forget.

i count my blessings. 
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Hold your ground, hold your ground. Sons of Gondor, of Rohan, my brothers. I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of woes and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down, but it is not this day. This day we fight! By all that you hold dear on this good Earth, I bid you *stand, Men of the West!* 
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Monday, October 09, 2006

i thot i could acheive alot more.

Then i realized i cannot be 'superman'.

i saw my capped limits and consoled myself i am only man.

God is fair. i asked y only 24hrs? to only understand all men have only 24hrs. It's way how they live in that 24hrs in that single day.

Pushed myself too hard. I set my working standard too high. i cannot seek excellence in sync with perfection in every area. No such thing.

Power and responsibility. How much can i hold and perform?

I have great dreams n ambition for the ministry. Many are laughing at this 'boy'. Looked at with the 'eyes'.

Wadever. Let God decide e fate. I am in no say.

How could i be ever different? How do i set myself apart from the rest? Wad is the norm the mass follow? How can i follow otherwise? Wad x-factor do i have? Do i have the oomph!? How do i break away frm the norm flow n set myself differently?

I myself must first be different, then i can deem myself to lead. If not, he is no leader, but just follower.

"LEADRSHIP IS A POTENT COMBINATION OF STRATEGY AND CHARACTER. BUT IF ONE MUST DO WITHOUT ONE, BE WITHOUT THE STRATEGY"

So, setting oneself to be different is impt, isn't it?

Wad does God have to say???

God. i need answers. Perhaps not quickly. But pls make it soon.

Then You called me Lord, to be still and LISTEN.

the pace of the world is far too fast for me to catch. but still You said, LISTEN.

disappointed by e norm n e peeps, i stopped seeking and started asking instead, You answered, LISTEN.

then i knew, the ministry You called cannot be divided becos when u once reside n still resides, Your Kingdom cannot be divided by itself.

So if i can smell your sweet glorious comeback n revival, Lord, i wanna be part of that moment and carry thru that momentum.

When You haven't give up, why shld i?

So i'm taking my step. But You alr took two.

Its amazing.


2Corinthians 10:1~

Now i, Paul, myself am pleading with you by the meekness and gentleness of Christ-who in presence am lowly among you, but being absent am bold toward you.

but i beg you that when i am present i may not be bold with that confidence by which i intend to be bold against some, who think of us as if we walked according to the FLESH.

For though we walk in the FLESH, we do not WAR according to the FLESH.

For the weapons of our WARFARE are not CARNAL but MIGHTY in God for pulling down STRONGHOLDS,

casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Chritst,

and being ready to PUNISH all DISOBEDIENCE when your OBEDIENCE is fulfilled.

do you look at things according to the outward appearence? if anyone is convinced in himself that he is Christ's, let him again consider this in himself, that just as he is Christ's, even so we are Christ's.

For even if i should boast somehwat more about our authority, which the Lord gave us for EDIFICATION and not for your DESTRUCTION, i shall not be ashamed-

lest i seem to terrify you by letters.

"For his letters," they say, "are weighty and powerful, but his BODILY PRESENCE is WEAK, and his SPEECH COMTEMPTIBLE."

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I'm still trying to understand in context.

But im clear enuff to know i shld start asking and learning.



If God is so GREAT, perhaps, we shld start seeking the GREATER things.

If God is spiritual n you say you believe in God, then believe with all your heart you should seek spirituality.

-Be holy, because He is Holy.

Nothing to be ashamed of.

N stop hearing wad's trifle and rumouring.

Period.
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