Friday, June 29, 2007

Sometimes i wonder, should ourselves benefit or benefit others.

Am i to bless or be blessed?

Should i receive or give?

Sometimes, that burden of the Cross can be rather heavy to carry...

WWJD-What Would Jesus Do?

He gave himself. entire self.

What about my ambitions? is it ever fair Lord?

would Jesus ever say to us, "is it fair to Me then?"

No Lord, You wouldn't... cos we are Your passion and desire Lord.

the same, yesterday, today and forever...

then i am ashamed. so so ashamed.

Lord, i lay them all down at Your Cross.

...take it, i pray....
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Monday, June 25, 2007

Ever since i came back camp from Company Tactics Course in SAFTI, work continues to kill me and there was no break, neither rest.

Then came the prep for musicians/choir retreat and execution which almost killed me too with < 2 hrs of sleep for 3 nights. However, i had no regrets, no complains, but i'm ill treating my body a lil way too much..i'm accumulating sleep debt, therefore, losing some attention and focus.

i was told i dozed off during one of the worship during the retreat w/o remembering anything. I laughed off like mad when i heard from ling quan and others. madness. whatever it is, the first night worship was fantastic. i can't stop to tell the story that when lq prayed for me, i was so touched and he teared for me. Came my turn to pray for him and i teared for him. insane!

the workshop was fantastic. Tho' it was watching dvd, we brainstormed our weaknesses and agreed to improve our worship! now, that was real training. after all the praying and higher intent from our two youth pastors, seems like the spirit is moving and things are improving. I won't be surprised when the waves of blessing comes through soon...

and God will heal our land - His speedlight.
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oooooooooo...we just celebrated our first anniversary together! 23 june 07 marks our first. It's been such a journey. Will upload some photos much later.

Basically, we went to sentosa and got a wonderful tan-while tanning away, we dozed off..so, we gotten some rest plus a tan. cool. then, we rushed to wait for showers. the ratio of showers:people is like 3:8? insane!

Afterwhich, took babe for a manicure and made her pretty before our dinner at "Royal Plaza on Scotts". what a name! -_-". i should name myself-Alvin Chia on Army. It was the first hotel to pride 100% smoke free hotel. ooooooo..right. it was like advertise all over e flat screens! Was a lil anxious when we were running a lil late, cos 1st anniversary, din wanna screw it up. So i called up the hotel and pushed the dinner buffet later..can u imagine if they gave up our seats then we stood waiting?! Any dinner its okie, bt for such a event better set some standard..haha..insanity!..

so we had our dinner and babe enjoyed the food! we ended up with lots of laughter and stuff-non stop! it's all crazy..i tried almost tasteless seafood, she said i was damn adventurous..all the scallop, mussels, prawns, crab, sweet dunno what and etc..whenever i tried one, i gave a spastic face..cos the food was drastic..its either i put too much lemon, or the tobasco overload. haha..then the worse thing, babe told me much later, they were available cooked.

-_-"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""'. i almost concussed.

then, we exchanged our prezzies. She made a cookie jar for moi, i gave her a pair of rings for us.=). simple stuff made us happie. the significance was this-i mentioned about no ring, babe asked y..i say, when the time is right, i'll propose the ring. but the ring ain't for marriage, to indicate our attachment. so, i waited and held the impulse till this time. which was right. Therefore, our r/s is controlled and in good pace. Ain't no rush. =)

Then, it was a long drive back home so she slept in the car like a baby..=)=)=) e long drive sapped my attention and energy like anything..but still, i love driving..

finally, we ended the day with a sweet call when we greeting goodnight...
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Moments from the field...

Commanding command


my serious side...

Recently i received very good coaching from my senior commanders on my mission and on the less serious note, he realized i fidget alot. Was at the pool side with Ivan, Hairul, Jonathan, Fabian and John. We had a interesting n reflective talk and had a serious feedback session and appraisal of every individual. I appreciated that session, cos everyone took back their strengths and weaknesses that were pin-pointed to the core. It certainly caused us to look at ourselves differently and sink in the most honest feedback. Such would really push us a journey forward.

Apart from strengths, one takeback was that i'm totally full of energy and in so being influence people to push on with lots of dynamic drive. However, it could be a double-edged sword. There was a need for me to level down to be sensitive and suit certain group of people who can't match up.

I agreed becos their feedbacks were very well conveyed and that honesty was insane! so every one of us whom we called friends and brothers were grilled and glorified. To only finally realise, all of us had dark fears of which we wld have never spoken. Some were fearful to fail, some can't fail at all and took it too hard upon themselves. That was when i knew we had dark corners.

It was a good session and i thought that tool could be used effectively.

To those who really think i'm only insane, i am too, serious.


No joke.
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Finally, babe is coming back from her hols!

Manz, i missed her like crazy. During the toughest time, God was there for me and she was the motivation in my mind...

and i can't wait to see her!
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Monday, June 04, 2007

A Saturday at the Green Botannical Gardens...


By e waterfalls...


Blue skies n nice dress!


Winding path...


Forging ahead...i mean, looking forward to swan lake..


what if she falls?


mayb babe shld hav sat on the swing...


haha...so cute ritez?


sleepy sleepy...


gal preparing e food galore..


its so amazing to c this statue in the park..so natural..


back @ hm, we prepared many grapes n 1 apple, fishstrips, crackers, bread n tuna..promoting green n healthy lifestyle!


she loves reading books..im the total opposite


Grassy grazzy!


then we rested and starred into the blue skies n greenery


at first, swan lake wasn't it w/o e swan. so i laughed @ babe. n 2 swans appeared. n i was laughed at instead


least i picked up a book and followed babe..


DON'T EAT THE ALGAE!


the following few flowers u c are all tiny yo! we have yellow here...


pink here...


mixed of beautiful stars...


and something confusing i cannot identify...


i wldn't regret taking this as a wedding photo...:) :) :)


becos i read, i stalled.


double dates @ minds cafe with Xx and Agnes

Basically, babe had a plan to visit the botannic gardens which turned out to be a great success. Hardly have the time to spend with darling gal and saturday(26/05) seems like the only good time for an outing since i started to get real busy when my course commenced. Both of us waited real long for such a time as this!

Morn we had our breakfast at Kiliney. Rebus for e pretty and lemak for your very me.

Afternoon, enjoyed a/c @ Fairprice and got our prep eateries.

Bus-ed down town n transited cab to insert into objective.

The weather was fantastic with frequent cooling wind. The food 'galore' we prepared was just nice with extras for me! I must say, it was babe who cut and took out the seeds from the grapes. Good job! Of course, i did my share to prepare the rest as well...

Evening was double date with Xx and Agnes @ Minds. All of us were rather close in character. We laughed on top of our hearts n voice for the retardedness and stupidity of humanity! Its totally insane with them! Totally comfortable, no formalities, no acts needed, its just totally being ourselves! i feel so free manz! Had a total good time laughin n jokin with darlin char.

Afterwhich we're done, all of us headed down to Timbre to support Bani's (our close sword-of-honour friend back in OCS) band...98FM was there, his band was rockin e hse with contemp n soul music! dude, u guys rock! Quite a few of our guys went down, Michael, Reuben, Daryl, John, Fabian and caught up with one of my sec sch female scholar! what a world! Didn't had a drink tt night, just went to support Bani and we went off after an hour. By then, babe n i was totally sleepy.

What a tiring but fufilling day. One good Saturday spent. I look forward to another with ya babe.
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Friday, June 01, 2007

Back-dated entry. Couldn't believe it was delayed for so long. It's finally here.

28 Apr 2007. Esplanade.
Arranged for the event and show quite some time back. Decided to watch the Opera with deary and both of us started saving to make it happen. Therefore, managed to get the tickets online and got real good seats but the date was slightly towards the ending dates of the troop here in Singapore.

Until we got into the theatre, then realized i was sooooo snooked. I din't realize it was such a side and flank seat. Though we were totally near the stage, i almost freaked out. Deary teared and i sense the intense disappointment. Decided to grab her hands quickly then. It sucked. I felt the total same way cos we made so much arrangements to only end up being terrible.

We took some time to settle down our hearts and started praying. The decision was made that we ought to be thankful to God for wherever we sat because we ain't wanting to leave the place in bitterness. During the break, we prayed and agreed we'll totally enjoy ourselves. True enough, hearts and mindset were mended and God totally changed the mood.

We appreciated the angle where we sat cos the character came out mostly from the right. Being so near the stage, we managed to come up close to the professional touch of the costumes and facial expressions of the singers. Blown-away!

I took time to reflect how i ain't aware of arts scene in Singapore. The interest grew and i realized my growth in such sector and arts appreciation. Apart from the Opera itself, i enjoyed God's presence and the company of my love.

Here are some photos of sweet victory in Christ of a r/s. The beauty of learning how to build another up, tolerance and mutual respect for another played it's importance. There are lot more challanges for us to face-every smile on our face is a strong story behind.

Deary, you make a difference that night. We could have left empty handed but we received much more. You'll sing beautifully like Christine and tho' i may not have wonderful voice of the lead, let me remain the Raoul in you...

"Let me be your freedom, let daylight dry -your tears. I'm here, with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you ..."


No casts? but a lady was kind enough to lend us batteries for this shot!


You had chicken, i had lamb... You had fruit punch i had expresso!


ummm...yummy ritez?


The LoVe of Food 'GaLoRe'

Prior to the show, we had our share of romance under the blanket of stars...


City of lights and love of the night!


dream a lil dream of me...


youmeus!


Keeping it strong...
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