Sunday, January 15, 2006

i found dis note my buddy wrote when he was down..interesting rite?see,even officer cadets haf their grey clouds..we're humans afterall,who needs some encouragement, pushing n motivation..we'll press on n overcome..


It's yet another week. Perhaps, there were more to feelings than speech. Met up wif my bmt mates, totally missed them..missed their fun, missed their smiles, missed their sincerity, missed their encouragements, missed their jokes, missed their every presence...nv had such a big group n bunch of non-fakers...all r ppl whom taught me how to express my views, feelings n be open to it..

n greg, he has matured. Army n ocs groomed him well. Like i've mentioned, national service 'steals' our time, bt we soon learn to treasure time wif family even more..being there for e 85 team n brotherhood said it all...u cared n u selflessly gave ur time away..

training needless to sae..fighting zzz monster all dae long..

I LOST MY OLD NOTEPAD

n i got so demoralized cos all tt i've learnt was written n some joker left my notepad somewhere when i place it under his charge. Almost wanted to rip him cos all i got was a simple sorry, while it caused me e sleepless nights..yar, tho' its juz some notepad, it was my hard work writings n all..i had so much information n inspiration i gotten from my commanders..i truly pray for it to come back, tho its 4 days already..

aniwae, did i mention my Platoon Commander was kinda 'cute'? wa...i tell u .. dis guy so young looking, is captain n drives..eloquent n well mannered..nt tt im gay, for goodness sake, please, bt i bet if im a lady, dis guy surely will be in my list..he's in guards vocation somemore!..whoooooh..

My one simple goal:
Outrun two of my commanders one fine dae.(he stupidly asked obviously,"eh, i overtake u rite?)

One hopeful aim(far from reaching it still):
Run a 9.30min for 2.4 n maintain. (tt will secure n resolve e conflict for me to go for guards)

Other than tt, more physical n mental training to come..

Lord, my trust is in You

There was dis one night, as i was sharing my inner tots n feelings wif my buddy, he idiotically dedicated the below song in his mp3 to me before sleep..he shared his life story to me as well, of which im glad cos its a start somehow to touch his life as we train down the months tog..if there's anything on ur hrt u need to let go, pls dun let go urself, ul hurt urself only..let God let go for u..so,

Let God.

From the album "Safe In A Crazy World"
Corrine May

Let It Go
I think we've been here before
I recognize this place
I've seen the marks of confusion
wipe out a single sign of grace
And I don't want to play anymore
Not when the stakes are so high
So before we circle round once more
I'm gonna lay down,
Lay down my pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

I turn on the TV
and it screams out at me
Nothing seems to have changed
since the start of Adam and Eve
So we're waiting for the sky to fall
and we're buying brand new toys
But before we circle round once more
Can we lay down
Just lay down this pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
Don't go wasting your emotions
No one wins if we keep score
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

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