Monday, March 27, 2006

thank goodness e night vic was around when e arguement took place.. 
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seeing the light.. 
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vic n dom.. 
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usual bmt buddies hang out.. 
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retro walls.. 
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our drinks.. 
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retro basin 
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Been such weeks of endurance. so much happenings, so much i wanna talk about...bt when it all boils down, im left speechless..

ive been charged the second time due to lost of controlled equipment during outfield. It was a 10 days Restricted Cadet Privilege again...needless to sae, there will always be the others who will look at us with a different look...nixon, one of my previous bunk buddy suffered the days with me in confinement, cos he accidentally dropped his stuff too..see, we dun wish for all these to happen either..in the past days, we haf been offering one another support, needless to sae, going thru all the sufferings tt no others could understand..all in all, i haf a 24days RCP record under my name..not only am i famous to the whole wingline now, im pretty much sure i must the one e instructors talk about frequently..bt i ain't no bad apple..

oh wellz, im done with my confinement and punishment so consider it over.

there were so much sweat, hardwork, prayers and tears towards acheiving a goal i've had for the past 6 months since entering NS. It's my Individual Physical Proficiency Test and Standard Obstacle Course test. Ive been training, disappointed several times n prayed over n over again unceasingly to overcome...here are the improvements..

During BMT days for SOC: 10.30mins
During OCS days for SOC(trail): 09.23mins
During OCS days for SOC(test) : 08.17mins

In OCS, the standard for the school to meet is >0930mins. For Charlie Wing is >8.30mins. Despite all the proper training, LT David taught me a very important...how desperate n hungry i am for my goal..during my first interview, i told him i wanted to achieve IPPT Gold standard, cos i couldn't achieve during BMT despite i took e test 2 times more than the rest during BMT..its always running problems..i haf to hit below 9.45mins..its really mad..

During BMT days for IPPT:running 10.30mins
During BMT days for IPPT:running 09.47mins(fastest i ever tried to run)

DUring OCS days for IPPT:running 10.30mins
During OCS days for IPPT:running(trial) 10.00mins
During OCS days for IPPT:running(test) 09.50mins
During OCS days for IPPT:running(retest) 09.36mins(but i shortchanged my standing broad jum)
During OCS days for IPPT:running(2nd retest) 09.30mins(finally i made it!)

Morale of the story=God actually prepared such a day of victory, but one have to be patient enough to wait upon the prize God had intended for and prayers to sustain himself to reach it.

However, i over-stretched myself. During the last station of SOC at the low ramp, when i leap off n landed on my feet, i exerted too much pressure on e knees n got it slightly twisted. 3 weeks le, e pain persists..pls pray for me..

Probably, no one knew how much i wanted the Gold, how much i wanted to prove myself i could push a little more every each time..i do nt need recognition, i wanted all these because i believe God could make it happened..n He indeed did. All the training regime i tried so much to follow closely, my instructos expected of me, my peers as well..many alrdy acheived their Gold, except me..i got disappointed, bt i need to pick myself everytime..there's nothing God can't do..so why shld i ever give up?

So, on the second retest, when i finally finished all e stations n the run, i rejoiced with my platoon commander n teared a while while catching my breath back..it was tears of joy..6MONTHS of waiting, training n all, it all paid off..God made it, i made it too..

Watched Friday Night Lights at camp and learnt alot from the show about friendship, family n team. Being perfect is your relationship with your family, friends and many others who are in your life believing in you, holding them close, telling them the truth clear in that eyes in tt particular moment if you could make it.

If u haf anyone to hold on to, make sure ur heart is full

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Artist: Dido
Album: Life for Rent
Song: White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

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was there any wrong done to deserve e cold?
Why does my mind keep practising your name?

Daryl said ive become bad since i broke off when i told him bout e situation revolving me..perhaps ive..perhaps not..

Being first, i wun be ur last
u aint seeing it coming

Oh wellz, i saw da's wing dvd...superbly insipiring..i shall then press on to be my cadet n officer at e end of e road in 6 months time..When i went thru e photos n reflect on e many frends n way of life we're living in, i finally understood why we must take up arms to train, to protect, to fight.

Life is beautiful...
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