Sunday, April 09, 2006

Distracted

To reflect, i must haf been the silly fool for the week...Not only am i not well, my performance was downhill when my friends became concerned over me...Well, im sure wads wrong inside, but i simply can't open my dumb mouth to express it properly..hehz..but my buddy was fantastic..when i woke up rite early in the morning at 5, stared wide n blank into the air, he offered a 01 x outstanding massage to wake me up..not tt it was a 'brokeback' scene, but when its not expected of him, it was comforting to know tt someone did cared afterall..he said, 'buddy, u ok not?'..aiyo..like some angel talking..haha..

Side track...Gd news. God made it possible when i was down with my fever but still went ahead with my IPPT test...the results were positive, it was Gold standard, i got to book out early on Fri night and the $200 into my pocket...

Back on..So, on Friday morning, all of us had breakfast..wasn't feeling so well inside..being so distracted, my mind often wondered off n was brought back to earth when my buddies shook me up..i mean, its kinda dumb cos they keep having to do that..and so, i took my breakfast on plate n a cup of tea to our usual table..

As we sat down, i placed my plate first n cup last. Then, the drink swayed in the cup and tipped off to the plate, soaking my bun up n i was like, sigh...simple thing done terribly..after a short 'argh!', i continued to eat tt soaked bun..so my buddies went like, still thinking bout it? i went, no la...but i know better inside..full of snapshots..

Here comes the hilarious part...just as i tot the bun thingy was bad enough, i calmed my nerves n drank the tea, thinking it'll soothe myself down..so i did...but when i placed e cup of tea back onto the table, it splashed on e inner cup n droplets spurt out onto my white polo..

ARGH rite?

It was only 5.50am in the morning. How bad can it be? My cadet platooon sergeant who was also another lamer like me, came concerned(dun bluff la,kapo rite?). Ivan, terence, xiang xuan were playing alot with me to make sure i be occupied. Lovely people. N all the talks here n there went rattling on when they were on my bed, all i could do was to stare upwards at the ceiling fan, thinking rite through my mind..

They finally got to the finale of e qns, 'yi ju hua, ni hai xi huan ta ma?'...i took some time to resolve, i gave my yes n they go, 'then you should ignore every factor and just go ahead...' n i tot, 'if things could only be tt simple to solve...it is a commitment for goodness sake...not some "bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zi zai hu chen jing yong you"..biang..wad generation liao?! ah pek know, all of them..takes two to clap ain't it? haha..n the worse thing is, one of the instrutor got to know it(n i seriously think its terence tt doddle) and pasted some inspirational words on the board for me...

For the very last time i say to you all, 'let me go larz..very fun to play me is it?'

This week, i told myself, i should be back to myself, not letting myself, nor my mates down..I will smile, be positive n head on towards what i should do best. If things were meant to be, God will intervene. No matter wad, ur call tt dae made e difference..u made it so clear..yet im still dreaming..

So why can't i get it? =) Neither do i noe..

Morale of e story?

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