Monday, October 09, 2006

i thot i could acheive alot more.

Then i realized i cannot be 'superman'.

i saw my capped limits and consoled myself i am only man.

God is fair. i asked y only 24hrs? to only understand all men have only 24hrs. It's way how they live in that 24hrs in that single day.

Pushed myself too hard. I set my working standard too high. i cannot seek excellence in sync with perfection in every area. No such thing.

Power and responsibility. How much can i hold and perform?

I have great dreams n ambition for the ministry. Many are laughing at this 'boy'. Looked at with the 'eyes'.

Wadever. Let God decide e fate. I am in no say.

How could i be ever different? How do i set myself apart from the rest? Wad is the norm the mass follow? How can i follow otherwise? Wad x-factor do i have? Do i have the oomph!? How do i break away frm the norm flow n set myself differently?

I myself must first be different, then i can deem myself to lead. If not, he is no leader, but just follower.

"LEADRSHIP IS A POTENT COMBINATION OF STRATEGY AND CHARACTER. BUT IF ONE MUST DO WITHOUT ONE, BE WITHOUT THE STRATEGY"

So, setting oneself to be different is impt, isn't it?

Wad does God have to say???

God. i need answers. Perhaps not quickly. But pls make it soon.

Then You called me Lord, to be still and LISTEN.

the pace of the world is far too fast for me to catch. but still You said, LISTEN.

disappointed by e norm n e peeps, i stopped seeking and started asking instead, You answered, LISTEN.

then i knew, the ministry You called cannot be divided becos when u once reside n still resides, Your Kingdom cannot be divided by itself.

So if i can smell your sweet glorious comeback n revival, Lord, i wanna be part of that moment and carry thru that momentum.

When You haven't give up, why shld i?

So i'm taking my step. But You alr took two.

Its amazing.


2Corinthians 10:1~

Now i, Paul, myself am pleading with you by the meekness and gentleness of Christ-who in presence am lowly among you, but being absent am bold toward you.

but i beg you that when i am present i may not be bold with that confidence by which i intend to be bold against some, who think of us as if we walked according to the FLESH.

For though we walk in the FLESH, we do not WAR according to the FLESH.

For the weapons of our WARFARE are not CARNAL but MIGHTY in God for pulling down STRONGHOLDS,

casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Chritst,

and being ready to PUNISH all DISOBEDIENCE when your OBEDIENCE is fulfilled.

do you look at things according to the outward appearence? if anyone is convinced in himself that he is Christ's, let him again consider this in himself, that just as he is Christ's, even so we are Christ's.

For even if i should boast somehwat more about our authority, which the Lord gave us for EDIFICATION and not for your DESTRUCTION, i shall not be ashamed-

lest i seem to terrify you by letters.

"For his letters," they say, "are weighty and powerful, but his BODILY PRESENCE is WEAK, and his SPEECH COMTEMPTIBLE."

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I'm still trying to understand in context.

But im clear enuff to know i shld start asking and learning.



If God is so GREAT, perhaps, we shld start seeking the GREATER things.

If God is spiritual n you say you believe in God, then believe with all your heart you should seek spirituality.

-Be holy, because He is Holy.

Nothing to be ashamed of.

N stop hearing wad's trifle and rumouring.

Period.
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